Trapped In My Own Mind

"No one understands."

A concept I can't seem to escape,

it feels like I'm drowning,

knowing I can be replaced.

I can't escape the voices in my head,

it feels like I'm being chased,

I know I should be going to bed,

but I can't help but stay awake. 

I keep to myself,

because no one understands,

I keep writing for these bookshelves,

creating my own wonderlands.

My life is a cycle,

something most can't comprehend.

I treat my life like a bible,

and I don't mean to offend,

but my mind makes me a disciple,

of something I can't seem to mend. 

I know it's all in my head,

but my mind is a prison,

all I see is red,

and if I don't, 

there will be a collision.

I know it is irrational,

but I can't make it stop,

I know it's not factual,

but the fear still makes me drop.

Some days I don't even understand,

I'm swallowed by despair,

nothing goes as planned,

like no one seems to care.

Every day I fight a war,

no one knows is there,

trapped in a world I can't repair.